ehhhhehh

yes, we were sneaking onto a private club beach... what of it?? A criminal is no different than the rest of the populace, except that he got caught.

My LURVVVVVSS

Ahh..... the beer, the computer... wnr... BRING IT OONNNNN!!! :P

(its wonderful to be an adult :P)

Looookkk its meee again!!

Alright people are not looking at my blog because they say that I'm not posting. So I'm posting! Heres a pic of me and my new computer :D We have a new person coming tomorrow to our home, so im incredibly pleased about that :P Hmm... I can't exactly post more now because I'm with the OC's and they're starting to get out of hand - time to beat them.

about MEE

Aright this is how some ppl in my home describe me :D i take NO responsibility
Jules: hey maleesha you're crazy! you're a bit blonde too.
Jen politely declined the offer to comment, saying that there was really nothing to explain seeing as Melissa is a rather simple specimen.

FORGOTTEN ARE...

If in life a memory cannot linger...
Everything else all forgotten
Else I would beat myself to tears for
I'd realize the memories slip through my fingers
Forgotten are the details of the day
You never realize till it's gone,
Would that it all come back to me...
Stay in my mind always.
Forever retaining what I hold most dear,
in the days when You changed my life so amazingly,
My thoughts can never turn away from You,
Soul... It shows the truth...

MANOUSHI!!!

There's something about going out first thing in the morning, in the rain, by yourself, to get a manoushi (for those of you who dont know what a manoushi is, its a sandwich made with almost a pizza crust, just a bit softer, with melted cheese, cucumber slices, tomato, olives, and mint - very tasty :P)... the streets are completely deserted except for a few brave souls, the rain is falling, there's silence, and for once, you're happy where you are. There's a feeling there, you feel so much closer to God, and you just feel at peace... I think im gona go out and get another manoushi :D (oooohhh darn... it stopped raining.)

Be cool - be like Jesus

Jesus made us... so he obviously made cool. So why do people think that if you love Jesus, then you aren't cool? It's completely whacked. Obviously some twisted person (the devil) felt insecure and completely un-cool so they decided to tell everyone that in fact, THEY were cool and everyone else wasnt... and because there were more twisted people in the world than cool people (because it's so much easier to be twisted than it is to be cool) everyone thought that being twisted was cool and being cool was in fact, very un-cool... so as time went on, more people became twisted and less people became cool, because it seemed a very un-cool thing to do. But a few people realized the fact that the un-coolness of the selecet few was actually totally way-cool... and thus began the Revolution!
(written by SMELLY - that would be me)

DEVINE FIRE

Written to Jesus... from MEEE

There's a heavenly sound,
There's a whispering wind,
Theres a quiet place
With You and I in

There's a lingering touch,
There's a searing kiss,
There's a heightening passion
There's an eternal bliss

I feel Your carress
I see Your desire
I want to love You
Want to light Your fire

I want to be ever closer
I want to be one with You
I want to be Your lover
I will always stay true

Our spirits meld
Our bodies meet
Our lips are locked
I feel the heat

I see Your eyes
Sharp with pleasure
I hold You close
The moment seems like forever
(Please let it stay...)

Hallelujah............

Never Another Love Song

Alright this is something i started writing as pertaining to real life, but i got carried away... but i like it anyway...

There's a secret I hold
Oh, so close
Behind closed doors
Only saved to talk about
With the walls
Because they have ears
But no mouth
That secret, is you.
Because theres something
That I can't place
And a beauty
That I can't understand
You're so perfect it hurts
And I cry because I know
You will never be mine
But I will always be yours
In my heart
You love Jesus,
And I can see
Maybe that's what I love about you
It's His love I see

And I vowed to never write
Another love song
But here I go again...
Because you've
Mesmerized me
Hypnotized me
Charmed your way
Into my heart
You've seen right through me
Seen my heart
But as far as I know,
You still, don't know.
But I'm crazy, crazy,
Absolutely insanely,
Gone, over you.
I guess this song is the
Only thing
That will ever escape
My heart
Because the memory of you
Is bound so deep
I won't ever forget you
Because when you walked into my life
You understood me
Like few others could
And I dont know what i'll do
Without you
But at least I have my Lord.
He's the only one who I could ever love more
So I'll cling, I'll cling,
So tight.......
And I vowed to never write
Another love song
But here I go again...
Because you've
Mesmerized me
Hypnotized me
Charmed your way
Into my heart
You've seen right through me
Seen my heart
But as far as I know,
You still, don't know.
But I'm crazy, crazy,
Absolutely insanely,
Gone, over you.
And I feel like never smiling again,
Never laughing again,
Like I laughed with you,
You've mesmerized me
Hypnotized me
Charmed your way
Into my heat
You've seen right through me
Seen my heart
But as far as i know
You still dont know
And I'm crazy, crazy
Absolutely insanely,
Gone, over you.
And I can't describe you
Cuz then you'll know it's you
And my cover will be blown.
So I guess I'm sealing my own fate...
I love you... Goodbye
Goodbye

This was a letter i started out writing to someone, but ended up writing as a general letter to one and all... (it's walking close to insanity)

So here's my letter. And it's for you. Happy? I hope so... la la la laaaaa... uh... ok... so what is there to say? Uh... Well first let me tell you a little bit about me. I am a natural blonde, that is to say, my hair color is blonde when in its natural state (though I am not the most clever of females... ahem) but my hair presently is a rather deep shade of red, which i rather fancy mind you (the nice way of saying: Don't you DARE say anything aginst my choice of hair color :P), I am 5 ft 10, my shoe size is... well... i wont tell you... you might get frightened; otherwise, i am blissfully unaware of the rest of my body's measurements, and I intend to keep it that way... seeing as what you don't know can't hurt you :D. I am, in a some people's words, spunky, in other's words, spastic (crazy, insane, moronic, stupid, foolish, beyond the point of no return, etc. Take your pick!) I tend to fancy the latter description; I have piercing blue eyes that can turn you to ice if you look into them, except when I'm horny they can turn you into lava (aaaaahahahaa im so dorky!! AAAAAAHHH me... what to do, such is life :P). I have freckles, which I like, and if you dont like it then well... TOUGH! I am fully Scandinavian, and I am finally starting to get people to realize that, instead of asking me whether I'm Italian, Irish, or Micronesian. (The fault lies fully with my frizzy hair, who's origin i can never quite figure out... WHY WHY WHY???? Thank god for straighteners) I enjoy doing stupid things like singing in an opratic voice (and not in a good way mind you) and making silly wallpapers about Penguins, lemons and peek-a-boo in Paint Shop for my and other people's computers. I very much enjoy shocking people (I believe it is my one joy in life), and if i've ever shocked you then please tell me in detail. You will make my day. I like guy humor (not gay humor, btw, I said GUY), have a perverted mind, and dispise girlie talk about "how my toes are longer than yours" and the density of eyelashes. I am moody, that is to say, I regularly have mood swings. I cannot be occupied with one activity for too long, unless it is reading a very good book or, ahem, other things. My dress style has absolutely no basis, I dress in practiclly every style on the planet, when the mood strikes (like i said, I'm moody); Girls are hot, but guys are hotter. But girls are still hot, and Jesus loves you. Now I could go on forever and ever and never see the end of this letter, but soon enough you will grow weak and weary from all your laughing (you are laughing, right? If not then please go right back to the begining and re-read it all over while laughing your lungs out - it will make me feel better) and you will grow bored, and my precious words will be wasted. So once you have rested and re-filled your laughing tank I will write you yet again, and maybe even send you a desktop picture of penguins, lemons, and PEEK-A-BOO!!
Cool no?
SmelliestMelly signing out.

MY HOTTTT ARSE COMPUTER

check out my sexy computer... i believe i'm in love....

Just got it yesterday, when my mum got back from Dubai. An old friend gave it for me for my 18th bday!! I am so very pleased. (BTW its a PaceBlade)

ARRRRGHHH

Melissa Highway Lake Love 8 Tower of Commitment 23 Loony-Bin Lane 48 Bankruptcity 160 Dumpsville 543 Please Drive Carefully

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Ok i am officially loony for posting more of these... but.... but.... but I lurrrvvvvvvv them!!! hahahahahahahaaaa la la la laaaa jesus loves me this i know...

OOOOOOOhhh yah :P

M	Mushy
E	Elitist
L	Loving
I	Ideal
S	Square
S	Secretive
A	Accurate
B	Busy
J	Jealous
E	Enjoyable
R	Rich
R	Relaxing
E	Enchanting
G	Glitzy
A	Astounding
A	Altruistic
R	Revolutionary
D	Dramatic

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AAAhhhahahahahaaaaa its sooo dorky!!

UCAUTION

IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP SMELLY AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.

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look... its me!!!

How to make a Melissa

Ingredients: 1 part pride 3 parts crazyiness 1 part instinct

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little caring if desired!

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Personality cocktail
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All about life...

Life is beautiful, and it's precious. So don't waste it moaning about the life you could have. What you have is priceless! You may not know it, but try this: Imagine you were dead, and you were there looking at yourself in your coffin. Imagine all the things you would realize you had, all the little beautiful, wonderful things that you had, all those things that you don't realize now, because you've taken it for granted. NEVER take life for granted. Life is sacred. Look at the rainbow, not the storm. If you don't like what you have, then change it. Remember, your life is your own. It goes both ways - It's yours, yes, but that means you're also responsible for it. If its boring and dull, then there is no one to blame but yourself. Remember that. LIFE IS SACRED.

Why BOREDOM??

I was just sitting about on my backside today, (haven't done much else, actually) and I started thinking, for the millionth time, why boredom? I started to analyze it, and try to figure it out: Boredom obviously starts when one has nothing to do, or is not motivated to do anything that is available. Alright, so I'm bored. What do I want to do? So I looked here, and I looked there, and hey! I found a few things. So I drew a bit here, and I drew a bit there... and I did this that and the other... but a short while later I found myself sitting back where I began. Boredom! Its of the Devil I swear. Ok, lets look again. What is there to do? So I looked here, and I looked there, saw one thing to do, and then another! Yay! So I did those things, but soon enough, I found myself sitting back where I had started, granted with my belly a little fuller, my legs a slight tad sorer from ultra power walking to the nearest manoushi shop (where it was that I filled my belly), and memories created (that no doubt will soon be forgotten) of the other few little things I did, and I was yet again, BORED! Oh boy. What to do now? I had done all that I could do, I had done all I wanted to do, but what now? There was NOTHING left to do! It was then that I realized. I believe it is one of the Lord's ways of showing us that we are nothing in ourselves. If we try to do it all ourselves, we will always end up by ourselves doing absolutely nothing, and being very bored in the meanwhile. Cool no? BRING ON THE BOREDOM!!

THE BREAKING

This is a song i wrote at the FDTP (I added the chorus after I got back home) called, The Breaking, and yah, not much else to say about it...

I almost can't believe,
The sudden change within me
The tears that flow freely
From my surrendered soul
Are for you my love.

And I'm broken for you
I'd do anything for you
I give you my heart,
I give you my soul,
Possess me, fill me,
For my life is worthless,
Without you

(Chorus)
From the East to the West,
From the beginning to the end
From now to eternity,
I give you all of me.
From the North to the South
In my heart and by word of mouth...
This was meant to be.

I surrender my will,
I am but a tool
For alone I can do nothing
But in your hands,
Through your eyes
By your mercy
I am everything just for you

No matter what they do
No matter what they say
Even if no one is left
Beside me I'll stay
I'm lost for words
Because there are so many ways
To tell You I love You...

There is no place
For anything but You.

Hey look... it's ME! yah u've probably all seen this one from hi5... but... i like it!! :D I'm vain im vain i know... im sorry... sniffle sniffle... (bottom lip trembles) i just really... sniff... really... (more trembling)... like it!! WAHHHHH!!!! (mommmmyyyyy) [ok sorry sorry i know im a psycho idiot... lol]

My prayer of commitment for the Ecclesia, 07

Dear Jesus,
I love you. I want to do what you want, be what you want me to be. I want to be fully possessed by you. I want to commit my life to you. I want to be in the center of and at the height of your will for me. I surrender my own will and mind to you, and I want to instead put on your mind. I don’t want to place anything before you, not my loved ones, not my free time, not even my work, because without you, Lord, even that is meaningless. I want you to have full place in my life – nothing else matters to me anymore. I forsake the puny darkness in my soul and instead leave it empty for you to fill it with your light. I want to give you all of me: I give you my eyes, to see the need; I give you my lips, to speak your word, and to comfort; my hands, to touch, to bless, and to heal, as you lead; my feet, to take me where you want me to go; and lastly, I give you my heart, so that you may break it for the lost and blind of this world. I give you everything… I give you my love. I want to be your bride, your lover. I give you myself – you are everything to me. This is my vow of commitment. Here I stand – I can do no other.

They are puny puny puny......

this little bugger doesnt seem to like sitting on me... :) i didnt draw this btw... i wish i had.

My Reaction for the Ecclesia FDTP 2007

The Ecclesia… The best thing that could have ever happened to me… the best people I dreamed of meeting… and the best shepherds I could ever have… I could go on for ever on everything that happened there… but I wont… I’ll just say a little bit J The best thing that I could thank the Lord and the shepherds for is the fact that I am not the same person that I was before I went, I know it sounds cliché but it’s true, and if you really want to know then you can ask the people I live with.
I went to the Ecclesia with homes and dreams of change, but not really thinking that it would be possible for me or happen as drastically as it had happened to others I knew that had gone to the first DTP in India… I thought that I might have a minor change, but I never expected the heights that it would rocket to. All I can say is that Jesus is now the center focus and the greatest love of my life and it almost hurts to think of a time when He wasn’t. I learned what true Discipleship is about, and I hope that I never loose the fire I gained. I want to thank all the shepherds, Dan, Sam, Gioia, Libby, Jace, etc for having the faith that I could make it, because at times I didn’t even have the faith for myself, and for always having the answers for all my many questions, and for being willing to be an open channel for the Lord to speak through.
I think the FDTP was the best movement that could have ever happened to the Family, and I don’t want to think of how I and many others would be right now if it weren’t for it. It helped me to see what the Family was all about because before I never even knew. I don’t know how anyone who really knows what the Family is about can say no to it, because it is the best place to be, and the only place to be if you want to serve the Lord.
(P.S. Dan I am still your biggest fan)

I am a toilet... a little toilet...

I am a Toilet for Jesus, a Tool for His use, and a Fool for His sake. Cool no?